Ehsaas: A Hindi Poem

First of all, sincere apologies for being such a lazy bum, but trust me my MBA program is really keeping me busy. Finally, after a long long time I've found the right opportunity to express something here. Today, I'm going to write in Hinglish (Hindi in English), again apologies to the people who don't understand Hindi. So, my Hindi poetry starts now :-) ....

This is "me"

Ek kadam humne badhya tha,
Chal pade the sab kuch chhod chhaad ker.
Socha na tha kuch iss kadar hairaan honge hum,
Apno se door, gairon ke darmiyaan honge hum.

Yun toh sab accha hai,
Per bina tumhare saath ke sab adhura hai.
Ek pal jo mein tham jata hun,
Tumhari hi baaton mein kho jata hun.

This is "us"

Mere har ehsaas mein bas tum ho.
Kabhi muskuraton mein ho tum,
Toh kabhi sharaaroton mein ho tum.
Khooli aankhon se bhi bas tumhi ko dekh pata hun.

Beet jaane do ye lamhe,
Khushiyon ka wo alaam aayega.
Jab meri baahon mein tum hogi,
Tab mujhe hosh aayega........

I collapsed to reborn . . .

I collapsed to reborn . . .

Living life king size, it was me.
Happiness all around, it was me the cynosure.
Ebullient, people used to call me.
I was poised, I was confident.
I was fealty(loyal), I was fruitful.
No doubt it was the best of me.

But one day it all ended.
Something happened which I never expected,
It was so gauche I never thought in my weirdest of thoughts.
Shattered were the dreams for which I was living. .
I lost interest in all Me, Myself and Life !!!

Never in my life I felt, I was so weak,
But then this was it, I indeed was !!
Somehow I revealed, something
about me which I needed to know.

For every consequence there is a reason
And this time I somehow wanted to ignore it.
The reason itself was so impeccable,
That I never wanted it to be the reason. . .
But deep inside, I knew it was The Reason.

Why it happened, how it happened ..
All kind of questions were erupting in my mind.
But I was clueless and yet I was
supporting the dilemma which caused it.

Surprisingly, the reason for reason to happen was making me happy.
This is something which shocked me and gave me shivers.
This was not me, I cant be like that . .
But the unlike me was only me and
I was supporting the reason of my collapse . .

As the reason happened, I unleashed one more power of me.
It was the real me, the power was - -
Being happy and importantly Seeing others happy.
This made me flamboyant enough to overcome my weakness
And as they say it - - after every dark night there is a sunny morning !!

The universe started sending me the signals again . .
It was of happiness, harmony and peace, all returned to me.
I bounced back, for sure with more powers
And of course, with new zealot to conquer the world again.
I knew, I m reborn !!

The enigma was over. The swindle of life was over.
I have new reasons this time . .
But not for collapse but for re-incarnation.
The re-incarnation, the rebirth of happiness . .
The birth of joy. . .!!

--- I M BACK ;-)
(Vivek Nanda)

“I”( A POEM)

“I”

Life was moving smoothly
Just like the birds flying in the sky…
I was facing the problems
Like the leaves passing through the rocks in the river…
But as the river was unstoppable, so was I
Still we both kept going on a high.

Sometimes amusing, sometimes eerie
Time was moving and so was I.
I did not want to think of past
But just access it to know what I missed,
For which I will work for rest of my life.

I know what I want to do.
But every time I achieved one,
Still my list was getting high.
Good or bad but this attribute of mine,
Has never let me satisfy.
Knowing it’s a cul-de-sac…
I was yet cormorant to go by.

I was coy, I was cherubic…
That let me ignore the comely passing by.
But Destiny pushed me in chasm all the time.
Buffoonery of life continued
And I became my own braggadocio!!

Lessons are learnt and I learnt few.
The rules were simple but this was quite new.
The people whom you love the most,
Is the one whom you hurt the most ! !
To others you don’t matter and to whom you matter,
Only they can feel you.

This enigmatic truth of life,
I revealed, I understood
It was rude…
Why would I hurt who cares for me ??
But the truth is truth…
Today I understood the complexity of life…
But I m glad you were there just by my side.

Lord, thanx for giving such people in my life.
Bearing me through and yet pushing me by.
Thanx to you PEOPLE for being my
And always love you all …
For just being MY !!

-Vivek Nanda

A POEM :People – The World

People – The World

The World is big but yet Vociferous,
It’s beautiful but yet filled with Virulent thoughts ..
The World is cherubic but yet deceptive,
It’s dexterous but yet destructive..
The World is poised but yet full of sinfulness…
It’s everything but yet nothing.

Soon I realized, it’s not the World but something else
Its not the World but people who is the World..
What I see, which is the World..
Cannot be thought without the people…
And surely they are The WORLD..

People are good, people are bad.
Truth is, its how people are to you..
But not …how they are!!
We love them, we hate them.
But its all relative.
What you give, is what you get.

People love the truth…
But only when its in their favor.
Else it always soar.
But that’s the way it goes..
After all this is the only way we know.

People are boon and they are bane..
The one who get troublesome influence are BANE.
Others who influence the world with good, are BOON.
Yes, that’s the truth..the INFLUENCE is what makes a person..
What all learnt …what all inculcated …
Superlative or abysmal…
Noisome or useful…
Love or hatred…
Is what a person is !!

Lets vie away the odds
And vicissitude the world…
Like a queen – the beautiful.
Lets be perspicacious to fraternize..
Be virtuoso to affluent…
Be fraternal to harmonize..
Be turbulent to debacle the bad..
Be just the good, to make the world..
Because its you and only you ..who is the world !!

-- Vivek Nanda

A POEM : -- Falling in love . . .

Falling in love . . .

Days came, days went..
I was always for myself, thinking just myself.
Carefree, like a butterfly..
I was jumping from one flower to next,
Whichever came next.

I and my cupidity of success..
Took me away, away from amigos
away from relations.
Yet like a triumphant soldier
I was going ahead, leaving all behind.

Narcissism was inculcating in me.
I was loving myself the most.
It was enigmatic, it was strange
But I knew it will pass,
Just like a phase in a life.

One day, I broached with a girl..
Almost like a star from one galaxy to the next,
it went so smoothly and all in a joy.
I thought it was just a moment of my life
And will soon ebb away.

Again, days came, days went..
I was eclectic, don’t know why??
The conundrum was ugly..
But yet engender the joy.
We were going along..
Just ordinarily . .
but the feeling went across extra-ordinarily.

Life inhaled a new life,
Surely, the Heart was in reckoning this time.
I was getting poised, behind her.
But just the sight of her put me in - - aphasia! !

I was shy and I thought, I came over it..
But seemed like the love caught up the real me.
Again shy, but arduously in love..
Wanted her but don’t know why??

Falling in love …
Is what I can sense it out..
But falling is what scares me, lord..
So please make us RISE in love.
Together, in happiness and grief.
- - Vivek Nanda

ONLY YOU - - A POEM

ONLY YOU…..

Whenever you will come, my girl,
The flowers will blossom all around…
The clouds will shower,
But, the blessings,
in the rhapsody of the harmony.

Your eyes are glittering …
Smitten by them, I go numb.
Unknowingly your eyes gave promises in abundance...
My heart beats on seeing them and love them the most.

The world of dream starts shining …
As I see you caper all over.
Loosing your sight for a while …
Making this world more than futile.

You come, you talk and you smile with me ….
But every time you go.
Agony of letting you go ….
Makes me cadge from inside saying please don’t go, please don’t go….
Letting my heart to chafe, you still go.

Seeing you with others, frets me…
But never had the courage to avow the same.
My heart makes me the vorticist of my life…
But the cynosure is only you, behind all lines.

Thoughts flows, thoughts erupts
All in my heart wandering in sea..
Like a yacht lost its way….
Waiting for zephyr to push it away.

I cede my heart and soul to you,
Because its you…………
And believe me, its ONLY YOU ! ! !

--- Vivek Nanda