Sometimes Your Love Is Not Perfect and It's Ok...

Thousands of years ago somebody came up with the notion of impermanence, of inevitability, of change...i am pretty sure they have just been dumped! 

I had a long time to consider the value of memory. An idea that something that doesn't last forever doesn't mean its worth is diminished. May be it was just a rationalization, easier on the soul what mourning might have been...Life unlived, I honestly don't know, but I chose to believe in memory, I chose to believe in her....I chose to believe that the bond was never broken...and we carried each other in our hearts as a secret singularity..she made me what I am today...a better man or not, I don't know..there would be other loves, even great loves...but only one remained perfect!

Judgemental?

It takes a moment that turns your whole world upside down. You are stuck, trying your best, but nothing seem to be working fine. It's that moment when walking on the empty road or being alone at the house gives that feeling of closed-in small spaces, claustrophobia! 

Emotions are hard to explain, because they are driven by judgements. Unfortunately, it's hard to tell if our judgements are right or wrong, but time will tell, for sure! In the end it's all in our mind, what we perceive, we start cocooning our self  under it, thinking that it will protect us...but our decision to cocoon and create a wall between what we perceive brings a shift in us, and this is when we start becoming self centered, do we?

I'm not a psychologist or a doctor, yet as a human being, I've experienced all sorts of emotional turbulence and sometime to steady yourself amidst the zillions of feelings can be really difficult. And at the same time, you will see others, turning into an unmovable rock who turn the direction of the wind head-on..nice, isn't it? But Is it really nice, when the wind you turned over is hitting someone else now? I don't have an answer, this is where our judgement comes into play, but I'm sure no one in the world will have an answer to it, after all we homo sapiens are one hell of suckers! If only there were a simple formula to crack the DNA codes to perfection!
  
Are you the victim of someone else's judgement? Well, I guess we all are...but the only difference is the extent of impact that we suffer. Sometimes minor, sometimes massive...or sometimes fatal!         

THANK YOU THANK YOU

It's my great pleasure to inform you that with your true support and with your loyal readership I've attained the great pleasure of sharing my thoughts with everyone on my blog. It has been a journey of all kinds from the initial scrappy grammatically eerie posts to the better structured more meaningful posts. It has been a journey of meeting new people and of discovering the special things they brought with them. A special platform where not only I've shared the things what I wanted to share but also heard what people are saying and what they wanted to share. An experience that allowed me to make friends beyond the geographical demographics except that I still miss an alien following my blog :)

Today, I'm proud of the journey in which I've not only added few really special people who follow my blog but also connected to few other very special people via social networking whom I met through my blog. Most importantly, I want to thank you for following my blog and for persisting few of the not so interesting posts. I'm extremely humble to you for sometimes patiently ignoring the posts out of your areas of interest without making the effort of Not-following my blog.

I always wanted to write a thank you post for you very special people who follow my blog, but somehow it kept dragging and today I thought I would let my heart to you. Thanks for all the love. Cheers :)   

TUM NAA SAMJHE TOH KYA HUA..(HINDI POEM)

Aaj phir wo din yaad aaya hai
Ek baar phir dil ne uljhaya hai
Ye shaam aaj phir aayi hai
Ab kya kerun phir se teri baat aayi hai...

Sochta hun, jo hua hai ab ho chuka hai
Jo beeta so beet chuka hai
Par aisa kya hai jo tumhe nahi bhaya hai
Meri har koshish ko tumne bas thukraya hai...

Shayad, hum kabhi na samjhe the
Aur abhi bhi hum nasamjh hain 
Lekin tumper wo gila toh abhi bhi shaya hai
Par humne bhi toh itni muddat ke baad khud ko uthaya hai
Humne bhi apne dil ko khoob samjhaya hai...

Kheir, ye mere bas mein nahi ki main tujhe apne bas mein kerun
Lekin hamesha tujhe humne apne ehsaas mein paya hai
Tumne na suna toh kya hua, humne hamesha tumhe apne kareeb paya hai
Sirf dil mein nahin, tumhe humne apni dua mein sajaya hai...

P.S. All my english readers, this text is in Hindi (Written in English;), so you might not be able to get it.

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE FOR ME

In the mountains under the moon
In the mist when it was gloom
I perceived a blurry image, I saw that shadow again…


Sometimes so near,
Sometimes when I was almost there,
It just concealed, I was baffled…


Like catching the water with the hand
I had nothing, but an empty jar
I was so near, yet so far...


One day, I saw you
We just crossed
Without any babble,
Without any talk…


We met again,
But this time we tattled
We walked away,
But our hearts were skittled…


Overwhelmed with happiness
I was amazed with what has happened
Out of nowhere a miracle had happened
For me somehow you happened…


We met, nobody wanted us to meet
We met, no one asked us to meet
We met, none thought we’ll meet
Still we met, we were destined to meet…

It was mesmerizing,
it was magnetic
I could only think you,
I would only spend time with you…


That night, I had a dream
I was in the mountains under the moon
In the mist when it was gloom
I saw the shadow again…


I quickly moved towards it
As I got closer, the picture got clearer
This time it wasn’t eluding
I kept getting closer…


I saw a lady,
Facing her back towards me
I touched her, she turned
And it was you…


You said you were waiting for me
Why I took so much time to come?
You held my hand and we walked away in the starry night…


It was you all along,
The blurry picture got cleared
It was you always
It’s you, only you…


You are the only one for me
You could only complete me
You are the best I could have
Only you…


PS I LOVE YOU


Dedicated to my loving wife, Happy Valentines honey!!

My Wife & I :)

Wish You And Your Loved Ones A Very Happy Valentine's Day

COME BACK

Today it’s a little hazy
The heart is going a little crazy
Few things from the past are pondering
Some special moments, few special people
Breeze of memories, departed glimpses
Hurly-burly emotions…..


It feels to go back
Back in the time, back to those unforgiven moments
Unmistaken that amazing friendship
Revitalize, the lost relevance
To comfort, to pester, to sit beside…..


Brooding over that unmatched fascination
Remembering those childish hassles
Recollecting those idle squanders
I’m glaring the lucid past
Anticipating it to come back
Hoping for us to come back…..

SPREAD THE LOVE, SPREAD THE JOY

Sometimes even a picture can make you feel something really special. I found these two pictures and they made me feel the love and joy. Hope you too will feel the same, have a look-

JOY

LOVE

SPREAD THE LOVE, SPREAD THE JOY

THANK YOU MOM

When I opened my eyes, you were the first I saw.

When I moved my hands, you were the first to hold them.

When I cried from hunger, only you would understand.

When I spoke my first words, you smiled with tears in your eyes.

When I took my first step, you cried in joy.

When you would be with me, I would never feel lonely.

You would help me dress for school everyday,

You would pack my lunch daily.

You would pray for me each day.

You would help me in my homework everyday.

You would give me the best meals daily.

Whenever I was sad, you would come to me.

Whenever I was disappointed, you would encourage me.

When I went to the residential school, you would send so many things to me.

You would send me letters regularly, you would miss me daily.

When I had my college exams, you would give me the comfortable environment.

You would do the dishes quietly, you wouldn’t let anybody watch TV.

When I went for work, you would always bless me.

Whenever I called you, you would talk short to save me money.

Before I could utter a word, you would understand.

Before I could ask anything, you would get it for me.

You would do all the sacrifices for me.

You would be happy to see me happy.

O mother you have done everything for me.

Thank you for always guiding me mom,

Thank you for always being there for me.

Now I understand the real meaning of the motherhood.

If there is God on the earth, it could be only you my dear mom.

Thank you for everything mom.

P.S. Thanks to BlogAdda for a contest that made me write this very special poem for my mom. I thought about it many times but this is the first time I have actually written something for my sweet mom. 

It was a special day and It became all the very much special today morning when I set my hello-tune with the song meri maa..mumma (Dasvidaniyan movie) for my mom. I told her to call me and she felt so delighted to hear that song. I felt equally happy to see my mother. Please do express your love for your loved ones, life is short. Every mother loves her children but that doesn't mean we should take her for granted, instead make her feel special the way she has been treating you since your birth. The mother is so special, so please make her feel special.

“I”( A POEM)

“I”

Life was moving smoothly
Just like the birds flying in the sky…
I was facing the problems
Like the leaves passing through the rocks in the river…
But as the river was unstoppable, so was I
Still we both kept going on a high.

Sometimes amusing, sometimes eerie
Time was moving and so was I.
I did not want to think of past
But just access it to know what I missed,
For which I will work for rest of my life.

I know what I want to do.
But every time I achieved one,
Still my list was getting high.
Good or bad but this attribute of mine,
Has never let me satisfy.
Knowing it’s a cul-de-sac…
I was yet cormorant to go by.

I was coy, I was cherubic…
That let me ignore the comely passing by.
But Destiny pushed me in chasm all the time.
Buffoonery of life continued
And I became my own braggadocio!!

Lessons are learnt and I learnt few.
The rules were simple but this was quite new.
The people whom you love the most,
Is the one whom you hurt the most ! !
To others you don’t matter and to whom you matter,
Only they can feel you.

This enigmatic truth of life,
I revealed, I understood
It was rude…
Why would I hurt who cares for me ??
But the truth is truth…
Today I understood the complexity of life…
But I m glad you were there just by my side.

Lord, thanx for giving such people in my life.
Bearing me through and yet pushing me by.
Thanx to you PEOPLE for being my
And always love you all …
For just being MY !!

-Vivek Nanda

A POEM : -- Falling in love . . .

Falling in love . . .

Days came, days went..
I was always for myself, thinking just myself.
Carefree, like a butterfly..
I was jumping from one flower to next,
Whichever came next.

I and my cupidity of success..
Took me away, away from amigos
away from relations.
Yet like a triumphant soldier
I was going ahead, leaving all behind.

Narcissism was inculcating in me.
I was loving myself the most.
It was enigmatic, it was strange
But I knew it will pass,
Just like a phase in a life.

One day, I broached with a girl..
Almost like a star from one galaxy to the next,
it went so smoothly and all in a joy.
I thought it was just a moment of my life
And will soon ebb away.

Again, days came, days went..
I was eclectic, don’t know why??
The conundrum was ugly..
But yet engender the joy.
We were going along..
Just ordinarily . .
but the feeling went across extra-ordinarily.

Life inhaled a new life,
Surely, the Heart was in reckoning this time.
I was getting poised, behind her.
But just the sight of her put me in - - aphasia! !

I was shy and I thought, I came over it..
But seemed like the love caught up the real me.
Again shy, but arduously in love..
Wanted her but don’t know why??

Falling in love …
Is what I can sense it out..
But falling is what scares me, lord..
So please make us RISE in love.
Together, in happiness and grief.
- - Vivek Nanda